i dun use ABCD... i use WXYZ... lol.. cute rite.. wad ever.. not the main thing..LOL.. haha
Z n Y are good frens.. W n X are good frens.. Z told X... that Z like W... but Z did not tell Y.. X ask weird things to W.. regarding about Z.. W went.. LOL.. W dunno wanna believe not.. onli recently.. X told Y.. Y den noe.. W dunno whether she chose to believe.. cause the wind seems to be calm.. this few daes.. VERY calm.. so.. temporary W chose not to believe..
end of story.. if the winds start to blow.. then the story will continue.. W thinks Z might hv a chance... maybe..LOL
7:30 PM
school
everyday of school... i would try my best to listen n do the practicals given by teachers.. but i do i might not seem to understand wad m i doing....................
i dun wan to become a burden to my class.. i m not gd at programming.. i wish i m.. i wish i could go back to year one.. n restart studying programming again.. i regret not doing homework.. for the array.. since that dae.. i hv return all back to teacher... that is y i m so weak.. i return all the basic to teacher................................. how can i continue... i will do my very best.... i will do my best....
12:40 AM
Saturday, November 21, 2009Y
my frens...
tuesday.. after lesson.. i saw my fren(liting) her face was pale.. so she call her father.. ask him whether he could come n bring her home.. we waited for her father.. but bout 20 mins later peng chin, ruilin n shin pei, went home.. i told them that it was alright.. as i would accompany her.. she sat on a chair nearby.. n waited waited.. i lent her my shoulder, help her.. i see her in the state.. i worried for her.. after her father came i watched walking to her father's car.. then i slowly left..
todae.. after our lesson i was hungry.. we went to the toilet first.. after that peng chin said that her sensei(teacher)( she is from the japanese club so call sensei), want to look for her.. or she want to find him.. but when we finish eating.. she haven come. so we waited for her.. i went to buy drink.. i came back i saw her lying on the table.. after she lifted her head.. her face was jus as pale as liting on tuesday.. shin pei ask me to bring warm water.. so i went to take from uncle.. i came back she didnt want to drink... neither does she wanna eat.. total no appetite.. so we told wanna walk to the toilet or wanna walk to block L. since we hv a test n might as walk there.. but jus left the south canteen onli.. so stop.. she cant walk.. her legs were numb.. they cant even support her.. at first shinpei hold onto her.. but after that.. she cannot take it.. she sat on the floor.. awhile later her lips turn abit pink.. a bit better.. not long a few more mins.. it became pale again.. we try calling for the guys.. i wanted to call lup sup(sin cheong).. but i dun remember saving his number.. so i called ah hui.. but he didnt pick up.. in the end we called her room mate.. she studies nursing so it was at the north side.. she rush to peng chin.. when i saw her.. i went to hail for a cab.. lucky.. a few cabs went to the hostel.. so i dun hv to go all the way out to get one. i told the uncle to turn in.. from a distance i saw peng chin walking.. she cant even walk jus a distance.. from the bedroom walking to the end of the living room.. she stop.. she cannot walk. notlong.. the guys came.. LY wanted to carry her.. haha.. he this skinny guy.. he got push away.. in the end was sin cheong.. haha.. at that moment..haha.. how i wish i was her..haha..LOL.. a good looking guy in our class.. nice shoulders..haha.. fit body..haha.. o well.. when he carried her to the cab.. she couldnt even start properly.. the moment she went into the cab.. i hv to urge to cry.. dunno y.. i guess i was too worried.. i didnt hv a peace at mind.. even i reach class.. so i message her.. hoping that she would rest well.. she reply..
thx alot.. help me tell the rest thx alot too.. thx for their help..=)..
while we were outside the south canteen she squating there.. i heard her voice.. crying.. suffering.. pls girls do take care.. i care alot for my frens.. you like this.. makes me.. worried.. i dunno.. i jus very worried.. scare.. i dunno how to describe.. do take take care.. =(
12:05 AM
Friday, November 20, 2009Y
religion
i m a buddhist.. i dunno y i would wanna post something like dat.. but i jus wanna post how i feel..
religion.. i m a buddhist because of my father.. i got a bit of influence when i was young,i mix with a group of christian.. i dun say i dun believe.. when i was young i told myself i must not be drag into their world.. but slowly when i grow up.. i start to think more.. everybody have their own believe.. y they believe in him.. when i was thinking tis.. is he for real.. so when i was in primary school i would always pray that i would not get caught.. but when i was young i onli pray when i desperately hope that i would not get scolded.. then i totally i m a no no to christian.. i totally do not believe.. my ex insist on me accompany him going to a church with him..i do not like that
when someone truely believes he/she would go himself.. you dun hv to be force, or require someone's company.. when you pray it can be any where.. you dun hv to specifically go to a church... i said that when i was young i would think is jesus real, is god real.. when i think of this.. christian would think the same.. is buddha for real, is the goddess of mercy real.. my father is a strong believer.. he believes in his god.. goddess of mercy.. n so on.. i believe too.. i believe that each individual has his or her own rights.. his or her own belief..
a kid can be a christian.. but does he or she believes.. another could be a buddhist.. but does each of this kid believe in their own religion.. when they grow up slowly they will understand.. parents are onli there to guide them telling them the right path.. believing is up to them.. whether they want to believe in which god.. they can choose.. some parents are buddhist.. whereas their child/children would be a christian.. is their chose to choose their belief their religion.. for me i m a buddhist.. but i hv a chose.. i believe in both.. we are the child the children of all gods.. trying to psycho ppl into believing your own is no use.. they hv their chose.. we all hv our own desicion in believing wad is the good n right religion for us.. =)
12:32 AM
Thursday, November 19, 2009Y
wednesday
today.. while i was sleeping i dreamt that my phone rung.. i reply.. i dun remember wad i replied..LOL.. it kept ringing.. then i open my eyes.. it wasnt a dream it was real.. haha.. i didnt reply.. so it keep ringing..LOL. i receive 2 sms.. -___-.. early in the morning.. another person woke me up. my sister meet her frens at 8 plus.. came home bout 9 plus.. on the com watch show on youtube.. so loud.. wa lao.. from the room i can even hear the voice clearly. even though i dun understand.. is a korean dram..(you're beautiful) nice show.. irritating..
she left again at 2 plus.. went to make her hair.. came back bout 5 plus with her frens.. her hair wasnt bad.. quite nice.. =)..lol.. 2 of her frens came to our house.. they all look different..=) lol..really different..LOL
12:08 AM
Wednesday, November 11, 2009Y
=)
todae was my sister's last paper.. they are having a barberque downstairs..=) lol.. i hope she do well in her O's'' not easy but i hope you did well.. if not you would not get in the course you wan.. serious.. i regretted a bit.. not totally.. but a bit.. so dun be like me..
6:08 PM
Saturday, October 31, 2009Y
blogskin
yo i change my blog skin le.. haha.. the one before is jus a temporary one...lol.. if is nice.. comment..lol...
10:07 PM
Tuesday, October 13, 2009Y
...
i totally no mood to blog.. mood is totally sian one.. but i hv to share things.. how much i really cherish my frens..
i hv a younger sister.. her life with frens ain't that gd.. our frens are totally different.. when she was in primary school.. cause she was a bit of a cry baby.. so ppl wont wanna make frens with her.. but her "bestfren" sort of back stab her.. after about upper primary.. my cousin same age as her.. was in the same class as her.. lol.. same thing.. frens nva increase.. but slowly.. i think some how she change... her frens slowly grew closer to her.. but not that close.. i ask her.. since primary school till now secondary school.. hu is her really gd fren.. she onli name one.. that is my cousin.. pei qi.. she is a nice girl.. i m oso rather close with her..lol she went to sceondary school i thought she might hv better frens.. weiling shirley n daphne. lol..they always seem together.. especially my sister with weiling.. but she told me her story.. everytime when they say their secrets they leave her out.. talking on the phone at night.. oso left her out.. next morning she will be totally clueless.. as she doesnt noe wad are they talking about.. it continue for like dunno how long.. still the same.. when they plan things.. they nva tell her.. onli when they are on their way.. then they tell her wanna join.. when she said she doesnt hv enough money. weiling would lend her.. when she say she dun wanna go.. they would say ok lo.. then forget it.. i wonder how come they nva ask y.. it feels that you want to join not joining like no diff that kind of feeling.. i was shock... sometimes when you say you dun wanna go.. ppl ask you y.? is because they are concern.. n hope you could join them.. n alot of things.. it is very complicated.. me n my frens.. we hv our problem.. she n her frens.. hv different problems.. i prefer mine.. n i conclude that i m happy to hv my frens...
ps: i love you all.. =) n my sister.. =) you still hv me.. no matter wad happens.. even if we quarrel.. i will still love you..=)
Eleen.